But its this feeling of being busy all the time that's keeping me on my toes and pushing me forward, harder.

It's just mere weeks away till the event, and I'm crossing my fingers so tightly we don't have to postpone it cos of the H1N1.
If it really happens, we really can just take a good break now, but its so fustrating to have to face that option when we're so close to our event date. Its going to burn us out, defintely, but I believe all of us want to do this if not we wouldn't have stuck it out for so long already.

I'm proud being part of this. That I actually am capable of being part of something so big that most people my age would never come across. Ever since this started, I learnt there was no room for self doubt or pity, only sheer faith and gungho-ness. and the lessons that I've taken with me will always be things I will remember.

We will prove to whoever's looking, that instead of falling like they are hoping to see, that our determination and teamwork is what that will pull us through the end.

But for now, while I'm still crossing my fingers that nothing happens, it's time to work hard for the Race Info Sheet for the Race Expo!

I can't walk properly now.

But yeah, it sure was worth the effort! (:
The route's U-turn points are finally, FINALLY up!
Felt like screaming to the entire world when James clicked the last 'enter' on his calculator.
ALL that cycling X.X

This is more tiring than work work but its something I'd definitely choose over everything else.
The OT we work till is going to make me look more of a zombie but I'll be a very happy and satisfied zombie. (:

I'm totally grateful for the chance to be learning from the best!
Guess its the kind of drive I saw in him that made me want to give my best to do things well. Plus, I'm learning so much!

Can't wait for next next Monday.
Would be exciting.
HURHUR.

I'm starting like my random titles. Weird.

 

In Singapore , the majority of us live in Highly Dangerous Buildings (HDB), and most people have already got used to Paying and Paying (PAP).

Not only do you have to pay, you Pay Until Bankrupt (PUB).

If that’s not enough, somebody still Purposely Wants to Dig (PWD)and get more from you.

So what more can you do when you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE)?

With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS), you are forced to
Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA),Which will leave some people Permanently Owing Some Banks (POSB).

And forced to live on the Loan Techniques Always (LTA) system.When you fall sick and happen to be admitted to a Money Operating Hospital (MOH),

You might be able to use your Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF)fund.

If you are out of luck, you may meet doctors who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you, and you will be Sure to Give up Hope (SGH).

To help ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE).

If that doesn’t help, they can always Eternally Raise Prices (ERP)on the roads.

If you don’t own a car, you can always make a Mad Rush to the Train (MRT), OR get squashed in a bus Side By Side (SBS ).

 
suddenly, 
i want to wear that uniform again
:/

i didnt go for College Day(night) because it was a waste of time.

the day part was boring, i guess.
okay lah. its me lah, the person whos totally with no school spirit.
the biggest joke was that i didnt bring my coupons! :/
but its okay, the money's going to a good cause.
it better be.

ytd's service was, enlightening.
i feel that God is giving me an answer, 
from sr ps to the 40day prayer thing to even a random blog post d showed me.
its amazing, really.

i was really nervous the day before
my heart was thumping so hard i felt it was going to fall out 
ahh!
we shared (okay you taught, i shared) the same thing (:

everything turned out pretty okay for me, i guess.
the 40day prayer and fast book hit me like bullets
(not curved bullets though. i like that show!)

i asked somebody ytd why didnt he take the book, he was like. for what? i dont even do it. just read bible can alr.
im not in any position to comment but still, it was o.O okayyyyy
im not saying everybody must take the book if not they will die or smth :/
okay i dont even know what im saying now.

pretty weather today, so i went out for some time with my awesome God alone.
found some random cafe and spent the entire day there.
it was so comforting to just sit still and to listen to Him, shutting off all distractions irl and in my head.
i dont know if its just me but even sometimes when im talking to Him, i digress to a thousand other topics and forget about what i was saying way before that. either that or so many thoughts jump into my mind like monsters, roaring their way around my head.

i have like 10 pieces of paper full of my reflections and prayers and doodles from today, and no, nobody gets to see it.
so no point talking about it here hah.
10 double sided pieces of papers is even more than what i write in exams! haha!
but yeah, most of it was about life and my future and things along those lines.

the timetable's out!
tuesday and wednesdays are (imagine a noose round my neck)
except for those little breaks here and there which im so thankful for.
going to make good use of the breaks, haha like rewards you know, after studying so hard?
its so going to work that way.
the breaks AND the studying part.

somebody asked me why i love children so much?
haha (insert cliche answer aka cause they are so cute!)
no way.
its so endearing the way they come to you, without being fake and bah
other than your parents, the only people who tell you they love you and mean it ALL the time are probably children.
caps-ed the 'all' word so ppl wont get me wrong :x
like how we are children of God no matter if we are 10 years old or a 100,
its because we can be who we really are infront of the Lord and He sees our heart,
not the weather-beaten exterior, painted over and again to protect ourselves
yeah, children are like that. special (:
they are who they appear to you, they mean what they say and sometimes, i ask myself why cant we all be children again?

that day i scolded my cat for upsetting the garbage at home,
and yet apologized to him later and talked to him nicely (yes i talk to my cats)
my mom asked me why did i do that and i told her that if i was the one who messed up the house and created a wreck, she should still love me (i hope) cos im her kid. its the same thing.
i think she told my dad cos he told me to give full and complete answers with explanations to my mom the next time cos he thinks she thinks that ive got a baby hidden somewhere.
mad.

my mom's kinda cute cos she doesnt love us, i dont know, the usual way?
she's that kind of person who would be thinking and planning our lives ahead of us (without telling us), making sure we would be comfortable and eating our vegetables.
she has scary ways of making us eat them. i think my sis got the worst one. it was bad, believe it x.x
she freaks out on minor things i tell her and thinks that my suggestions and said-out thoughts are decisions and freaks out again.
she used to tell me she will stop giving me my allowance, and cut my phone bill when it exploded more than a hundred times, but never once did. :)
the reason i can speak mandarin is cos when i was little, she TOTALLY ignored me on purpose when i spoke to her in english. my dad cant speak mandarin at all. no hope. gone. hahhaha.
she insults me like mad (hello im your daughter!) when we go out shopping. 'no, wear that and you look like a slut'. mom, it was a full-length dress. and yet empties her wardrobe and goodies to me at home. 
i think she doesnt mean what she says all the time :)
have the feeling she's scared i will run off or smth and she'll never get her daughter back again. 
i wont and cant stay dependant on her for the rest of my life but i'll never run away, even if i killed someone.
cant bear the thought about my mom being sad.
mommy i love you. alot.

daddy i love you too.
haha its not like you read this. either way, i hope you never do.
:/

today was a really lovely day.
thank You and thank you. :)